My BF David's mom Maxine, who was a vibrant 94 years old, passed on to heaven December 30, 2011. My younger brother, Bruce, passed unexpectedly on March 7, 2012. My dear darling mom passed on to heaven on March 21, 2012. The lilac bushes were in full bloom outside my childhood home and the air brought so many vivid childhood memories back. My mom was an ardent gardener; hydrangeas, lilac bushes, and her beloved rose bushes and her abundant vegetable gardens. My older sister Betty has lovingly cared for the gardens since my mom was unable to do so in her later years. I remember driving up to visit my mom last year and Betty was in the garden, looking like an English garden lady with her gloves, straw sun bonnet on, and a trowel in her hand. So, I feel very fortunate to have had my 63rd birthday on March 14, 2012. I hold onto so many small memories which give me joy and at the same time sadness. I cry for her going because she gave me so much and I know she knew how much I appreciated her kindnesses to me, even when I did not deserve them. I am alive in a world full of life, can smell the earth after the rain, see the wind, hear the vibrancy in others voices, and wake up ready to see and live a new day.